Decision to Leave in a monologue

I can no longer hold this in
not any more

my head screams

my heart moans 

hysterically my whole body aches

I feel miserable

Why don't I go insane

Why don't I lose my mind

Why am I still conscious

Why am I still sober

Why am I on earth

What on earth am I doing on earth

I hate everything right now

I need to clean my head

If I could wipe everything out

with a bucket of water,

I would pour torrents

I need to get out of this world

I don't belong here

Wrong place, wrong time sweetheart

You need to find the courage to leave 

Your staying is a waste of everyone else's

time, life, love, and space

So don't be a coward now.

Don't be selfish.

Go.

-Uththara-